Friday, May 30, 2008

Learning to Trust

I think a lot of what this move has taught me, again, is the lesson of trusting. Trusting in a Source that is far beyond me, that understands the big picture, that sees the greater good. Like I've said before, this move has been fairly difficult. However, I continue to refuse to think that we made an unwise decision. It just takes time. I can only see part of the puzzle now. I trust that in time clarity of vision will come and the larger picture will become apparent. God has been incredibly faithful (far beyond what I could have ever imagined) and I trust that as I stay committed to the path, despite the journey along the way, (this is turning into my life motto), that I'll see the greater good and reason we have been led here. But in the meantime, I'm trying to trust. It has definitely turned into a spiritual discipline.

However, as I look at what I do have to be grateful (b/c seriously, this post is starting to sound pretty whiny), we all have good health, we have each other, we have a great place to stay now in the meantime, Owen absolutely LOVES his cousins, we enjoy daily walks on the Mill Race watching the ducks and listening to the birds, and the weather has been beautiful.

Being grateful and thankful for the small blessings I see each day...perhaps that's the first step towards trusting. Hmmm...

Friday, May 16, 2008

Officially in transition!

Hello! Ok, it's been awhile, I apologize...I know how frustrating it is when you want an update and keep seeing the same heading, "We're plugging along!" I would love to post some recent pictures of our family, move, etc...but alas, it seems the cord for our camera is somewhere in a mountain of boxes! So, in brief, here is the update:

1. I drove Owen to Ohio last Thursday to hang out with cousins while his 'rents packed.
2. Shawn and I flew to Denver Friday through Tuesday to pack up the rest of our stuff and
make sure the movers took everything.
3. Today, Owen and I made sure that the truck arrived in Goshen and opened up a storage unit
for them to store all our earthly belongings. (As my mom made mention: hopefully it doesn't
leak when there is rain, mold doesn't grow in your freezer, and mice get into your couch.
Thanks, Mom for the encouragement. :)

It's weird, it was obviously hard moving here the first time, but I suppose I knew that we still
had a house which felt like a center. Now, with it all gone, I feel as though I have no place to really plant down, like I'm flying through space, wondering which direction I'm heading. Hopefully, our housing situation will come together w/i these next few weeks and we'll have a better sense for schedule and direction.

I think Owen's feeling a bit of the stress, too. After spending 6 days apart, he has been not wanting to go to bed (aka be alone), whereas before it was a dream putting him down. I suppose he also wonders if he loses sight of us...will we return?! Poor guy.